jack3d UP
I started a new supplement called jack3d with my workouts. So far I’m really digging it. Hopefully it isn’t one of those things where a few months from now they come out with some study that says it gives you cancer or makes your heart explode or something. It gives me energy, power, and better focus. After my last workout, I went and wrote a 12 page paper in one sitting … rare for me. So we’ll see if this keeps up. I hope so.
I just got back from Oktoberfest the other day. The yearly trek to Helen, Georgia proved to be fun. I was a little disappointed that none of my friends could come but sadly that has become normal for my trips. The Vegas trip in July was the exception. Usually my travel companions can’t make the trips for one reason or another and this year proved no different. I’m hoping that changes as my friends get a little older and more stable, but we’ll see. Either way, I had a great time visiting with family and friends of the family. Nothing like beer, german music, and lots of bratwurst to bring us all together!
My sister came with this guy she knew a long time ago. She was starting to get interested in him but the interest didn’t hold. He wasn’t exactly what she was looking for and then only proved himself to be pretty lame. He’s 31 or 32 and when things went south for their weekend together, he decided to urinate on some of her clothes. Yeah. Aside from that being disgusting, I couldn’t really do anything but laugh in disbelief. Who does that? Clearly he didn’t know how to deal with the situation. Some people. heh.
Now that I’m staying in Charlotte I’ve been trying to make some new friends. So far, I’m not doing too well. Everyone wants to find the love of their life or nothing at all. I don’t understand. People want to date without even taking time to get to know one another. Its pretty lame. I personally want to find a good group of friends. Good relationships have a foundation in friendship, so I’m trying to build a foundation before I decide to build more.
Oh! Speaking of jacked up, I’m kind of upset with a certain family member. Apparently, the reason I’m single is because I don’t lavish females. Allegedly, you’re supposed to spend money on people and they’ll like you. I laughed when I heard this because 1) I want someone to like me for me…not for my money and 2) I am pretty liberal with my money as it is and 3) I couldn’t believe how scary the logic was that people like to have money spent on them and thats how you get a long-term relationship. We all enjoy gifts, but if you set that precedent then you have to keep it up and that puts you on the road to having a money-based relationship. To me, thats no better than starting out a relationship by hooking up. In that case, its sex based. This is why I like to focus on friendship. Take me as am as a person. My money, my *amazing* sex, and other things like that do not define me.
Speaking of this … while I’m on a bit of a rant … who the hell cares about my sexuality? Some family members have made comments lately and I’ve gotten some e-mails asking. Does it really matter if I kiss boys or girls? Again, this is something that doesn’t define me as a person. I’m sad that such weight is put on things like this. What if my answer was that I don’t know what I want? Then I’d be viewed differently because people weigh things differently. If I said I kiss boys, I’d be viewed as Gay-Corv … not just Corv. If I said I kissed girls, I’d be viewed as “normal” but still have these nagging and dreadful statements about what I’m doing wrong (ie, not lavishing someone). Are we really so behind the times that it matters who people choose to love/sex? I really don’t place much value on it all. Consider me asexual. 
Ok time to go to the gym and get ripped so I can impress all the hot PEOPLE. haha.